Many people suffer from the fear of finding oneself alone, and so they don’t find themselves at all.” ― Rollo May, Man’s Search For Himself Many moons ago, when I was just a youth in college I was getting drunk with some friends.  We had started a funny conversation about our greatest flaws, and I had been mostly silent trying to think of something witty and funny to say.  When it came to my turn, out of my mouth popped something neither [Click Comments To Continue]

There are a lot of universal truths in life.  You know, the fact that it’s easier to get a job when you have a job, the toast will always land butter side down, and apparently, guys are all about looks. Let me explain.  In the past couple months I’ve been working out.  You can read about why I’ve been working out over here but it’s definitely not to get the attention of guys.  I have dropped around 41lbs, and definitely slimmed down, although [Click Comments To Continue]

Before I get into what happened with me and A.H.Helmi (sorry for the name change – he’s constantly making me write not his real name in here), let me explain a little about me.  I play video games (my current obsession, Sim City 5), I love music, I write.  I design websites, I love to drive fast, and I like to spend money.  I’m an immediate gratification kind of person, but I try not to rely on others to provide me that gratification.  I have [Click Comments To Continue]

I should have written today.  In fact, I had planned to do nothing but sit down and write Savior.  Instead, I woke up and discovered that a ton of cars (like 100+) in our neighborhood got their tires slashed last night – and then I spent all day playing Borderlands II with Eurymakos.  When we finished so he could go watch the Ravens, I sent him a text that said: “Just an FYI, tomorrow night you’re coming to play games with me and spending the [Click Comments To Continue]

This morning I woke up to some pretty bad news.  Well, not bad news, more news that made me go WTF at the people I used to associate with.  So, how did I handle this? 1.  Wake up your roommate and best friend and chain smoke on the balcony while talking about life for a while.  I realize from this that I am truly, truly blessed to have Katina in my life and I’m glad that the damage I did while I was dating [redacted] wasn’t permanent   Mostly [Click Comments To Continue]

You may have noticed I changed the layout around here.  You see, I used to use the “Crazy.Beautiful.Life” as the title, and I bought crazybeautifullife.org and intended to move everything over there because my life was apparently so crazy, and beautiful.  The truth is though, I’ve gotten pretty lame.  I don’t party like I used to and have absolutely no desire to, and I don’t really do anything so crazy.  (Unless you count publishing a book in [Click Comments To Continue]

I’m going through a period in my life that I hit probably every four or so years where I take stock of the people in my life, and I decide who I want to stay around and who I want to leave.  The last time this happened, I ended up moving back into my parents house and playing World of Warcraft for six months and not seeing anyone.  It was time for me to re-evaluate where I was, and what I was doing, and who I was doing it with.   I’m there again, [Click Comments To Continue]

Human beings are ambitious. We spend so much time wanting, pursuing, wishing. For the most part, that’s okay. Ambition is good. Chasing things with integrity is good. Dreaming. As long as the chase doesn’t diminish what we already have. The goodness we take for granted. The people we take for granted. The lives we take for granted. My life is good.  - Haley James Scott (One Tree Hill)  I got in a fight with a friend yesterday which pretty much [Click Comments To Continue]

It’s a been a while since I talked about a relationship about here, and I totally tried to come up with another topic for today’s post, but since I was lacking in the inspiration field and the ex-boyfriend wouldn’t provide a guest post, I’m going to write about him.  Seriously, the conversation went like this: Stephanie Dorman:  I don’t know what to blog about today, i want to blog about you but i promised i wouldn’t, lol Eurymakos:   Blog [Click Comments To Continue]

So this weekend while I was blog surfing, I ran across a handful of posts by mothers who were having a tough time handling the fact that their daughters were being bullied in school.  This post is mostly dedicated to those mothers and daughters, because I assure you, while not trying to minimize your pain or plight, it is no where near as bad as you think it is. 1.  You are not as unpopular as you think you are The first, and probably most [Click Comments To Continue]